Tuesday, March 31

I HATE POLITIC..

Really really do,
the world is filled with people and its only normal for them to think differently, have different backgrounds and take different stances.


Politics only enhance these differences and turns them into a problem! Politics seeks to let some get over the heads of some, to take whats not theirs, to get into struggles and endless arguments .. politics has been through all ages described as "UGLY" and thats the truth. Its dark and it dismantles the natural balance of society.
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"A man who does not think for himself does not think at all. It is grossly selfish to require of one's neighbour that he should think in the same way, and hold the same opinions. Why should he? If he can think, he will probably think differently. "

What i hate more than politics is "IGNORANCE" people who take stances with out any research or information, people who are being brainwashed and spoon fead all what they know .. people who do not think for them selves and just want to think and say what everyone else is saying! This is the bigger problem.

I wish all of whats happening would stop, whats in the past is in the past .. the present says that were all living on this peaceful loving land .. why isnt it bringing up people that are peaceful and loving as well? whos falt is that? no titles for once ,, no strikes for once ,, no fights for once,, no bashing for once .. just us .. living together understanding one another .. thats all it takes.



I would like to end with a prayer: Dear Allah please let us live in peace, dont let us fight any more.. let this crisis pass on quickly and let it be the last one insyallah .. Allah please protect MALAYSIA from any harm, even if it was from eachother .. again let us be at peace and content ya Allah.


hope everyone is well :)


Opss... lepas geram jer!!

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Monday, March 30

IDENTITY...

How would you want to define your self?



More importantly, how can u define your self?


What are the options that were given in our life?


Most of the people i meet, ask for my name, my age, my job ..sometimes .. its my hobbies, my house ...if we try to go broader here .. you will be defined for your skin color, your race, your religion .. your political views ...ect..


Im starting to feel that each person have turned into a checked application. You fill in the right boxes, and when your done .. you decide if you want to keep that form or not .. and if u need to be incontact with that form again ..you will have to register it under a number .. or an electronic address.


Maybe im not making sense.. but the image im seeing in my head is harsh cold! Humans have lost their sense of touch. rarely do you see them welcome eachother with open arms, and a smile.


Somehow we have managed with time, money and power to dehumanise people, turned them into forms and lines - territories, materials and positions .. no one cares how your feeling, who you really are from the inside. Your surrounded with people but at the same time, deep inside you know your a stranger and alone. For that loss .. people are hating and killing eachother.


Our prophet Muhammad  was the only prophet who did not need to make miracles for people to believe in him and his message, he himself was his own miracle.. the holybook (Quran) he came with, and his heart .. his miracle human heart managed to show people how to live together .. but more importantly .. how to be at peace and love one another.


Just a very long bit tangled thought... wish everyone is well!

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Sunday, March 29

HUGS....

Exactly what ive been talking about.....


PLEASE READ.....

Sometimes, a hug is all what we need.



Free hugs is a real life controversial story of Juan Mann, A man whos sole mission was to reach out and hug a stranger to brighten up their lives.


In this age of social disconnectivity and lack of human contact, the effects of the Free Hugs campaign became phenomenal.


As this symbol of human hope spread accross the city, police and officials ordered the Free Hugs campaign BANNED. What we then witness is the true spirit of humanity come together in what can only be described as awe inspiring.


In the Spirit of the free hugs campaign, PASS THIS TO A FRIEND and HUG A STRANGER! After all, If you can reach just one person


 Everytime i watch this video!! i get goosbumps and cry!!


Every time.


*ps: im still job hunting! can u believe that?!!


*pps: special hug to my special lovely most beautiful....

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Saturday, March 28

HOPEFULLY

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Yeah..im reading.. sorry late to reply.. im very busy... all your advised.. yeah im accepted!! Hmm permission 18sx ekk??? Hmm sorry.. .. cant give u la bro...

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Friday, March 27

DIMMED

motionless
look up or down,
theres no pathway
im not standing.
i cannot reach...
with the senses of my mind.
gravity had failed me


*ps: this poem is me this time.

*pps: listening to: tonight and the rest of my life - Nina Gordon. thnx scarlo :*

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Thursday, March 26

CHEST PAIN

How can a total stranger, cause so much pain?



Someone that doesn't even know you exist, comes in between!


A thing, a third person, that becomes as alive as you are.


You cannot confront or give your back to with its haunting intensity, everywhere.


I hug the pain, I hug my pain....maybe with time, pain will fall in love with me and gentler, it may want to be.


Im so tired

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Wednesday, March 25

LOL.. ADVICE...

Almost everyone been calling me or coming over to see how im doing .. ( which is so nice ) but also most of them wanted to give me Great advice! (according to them)



Some advice were ok, and some were heh.. but .. no one could ever top this one.
Today.. im received one sms from my fren......thank you Yeo Meng Hoo...

So long time you dont  meet them(family), definately you always think and miss them deeply. Me to feel sad sometimes.. but me just everything to god..

 

So??? ARGHH!!!

Im getting tired .. ill continue this post later .. needless to say .. i really need ur prayers .. take care all :*

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Tuesday, March 24

CHARACTERIZATION...

Lebih baik memaafkan musuh dari memaafkan sahabat...

Lebih baik berdendam pada musuh dari berdendam pada sahabat.

Confused?? Freak??

Ujang lebih suka pegang ayat tersebut.. nak tahu kenapa? Ini bukan insinuation.. but... u can thinking about it.. very easy... Jawapan ada pada diri sendiri.. Cuma dia berada dalam keadaan Invisible.. try to find.... mungkin akan jumpa apa yang implicit dalam diri sendiri.. cuma kita tak dapat nak terjemahkan dengan kata-kata..

Entahlah Ujang hari ni rasa tertekan sangat.. macam mana nak luah pun Ujang tak tahu dah... N

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Monday, March 23

REALITY

Every human is on a task, its an obligation to try and please yourself, be happy. We all want to be happy ... that's why we live this life .. no body wants to live it being miserable and sad. Trying/wanting to be happy makes us wake up every morning, and do what we all do.


It is the main reason for us, being happy and reaching the ultimate happiness which is of course in the after life, if we ever make it to heaven insyaallah ..... -fingers crossed-


Sometimes i feel like, wanting to be happy makes me unhappy!


Which got me thinking I'm sure with all the variety of people around .. they all have their own simple little ways of trying to be happy when they're not. I'm really curious to know.. what are the other ways...???


So my question......

Yeah my point was .. i want to be happy ... what should i do?


*ps: -brown makes me happy-

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Sunday, March 22

WHAT IN A NAME???

Ok its simple: my name is UjangMD a/L Makcik Zainung .... etc.... i know..


So whats urs?


* btw: im not doing this for fun, theres a point im trying to prove.


* for those who i already know their names ( my friends ) im not doing this for me! so, you know what to do.. hahaha....thanks :*

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Saturday, March 21

I DID IT....

Fresh start....new page many names, but it means one thing, You have a chance a new one to prove yourself. To do what u always wanted to do. Some people wait for birthdays, new years, special occasions for them to be their new start days! A new start is exactly what we have the minute we open our eyes every morning.

Why wait for a certain date?

Why waste time?

Just kick it and go do what ever it is u always wanted to do. He/She only thing stoping u from doing it, is fear! fear of failure fear of judgment. Fear that u will judge ur self ... the "what ifs" .... endless what ifs that are stopping u from achieving, and moving on.


Today i did what i kept postponing for months. Today i kicked fear in the as$ and i wasnt afraid anymore. I didnt wait no longer. I didnt set a date for it. I just did it. The result, simply ...... GREAT!


I still dont know what the out come, i still dont know what will i do later on but i do know, that this is truely going to be a fresh start for me and for that im happy. I feel relaxed, i can breathe and think in a way that i miss, didnt know i missed it but now.


I hope this inspires u coz im sure many of u reading, have many things haning on ur backs waiting to be out and actually done. so just do it. Right now... do it. U dont know what ur missing. Believe me when i tell u, nothing is worth not giving it a try. At least ull stop looking like the pic up there... i know i did.


ps. i know i kept saying "doing it", by that i meant something useful to this world. So shut up.

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Friday, March 20

THINK AGAIN

So been friends for years and years...


And when you think you know someone, a "friend" you THINK you really know someone, thats when u have to realize, that you dont.


Friends can always SHOCK! you .. im not talking about back stabbing..


No no .....


A friend can really shock you, just to let you know .. you never really get to really know anyone .. NO ONE... maybe maybe .. if you'r really good and fortunate, someday, you'll get to actually know you'r self!


So good luck ;)


Ps. so far not watching any tv ( woohoooo!! ) ;p


Pps. job hunting ;)

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Thursday, March 19

REALLY NICE

I have been listening to this clip everyday:

"Asmma Allah - Sami Yusuf"

The first time i saw this .. i burst into tears .. it touched me so deeply ..i kept thinking .. THIS IS .. the real image of Islam ..this is how people should feel about Islam. a peaceful .. gentle .. beautiful and pure religion. It is so sad how things are turning out for us.... anyways .. hope all is well ;)

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Tuesday, March 17

?????????????

ابد والله لن ننسا حسينا

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Tuesday, March 10

PRICELESS...

I dont feel like writing a post. I dont even know what to write about! I so far wrote three posts: how life is all about give and take,..then i deleted them all. because i dont feel like writing and im kind of forcing my self to write. My last post was very depressing, and for that i would like to apologize. No one was able to figure it out, but it was about cheating...but now i feel much better -alhamdulillah-


I have realized, nothing in this world is worth a moment of u not being able to smile.Seeing total strangers, smiling for me, and i smiling back helped a lot, so now when i do it, its for anyone out there who needed it as much as i did in the past few days.so, im smiling right now and i wish ur doing the same :*


love u all.

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Monday, March 9

For in that sleep of death, what dreams may come ....

This is life as we sleep, dream and see as every minute passes by as we grow and just be it is life.


Are we really alive?

Is all of this real?

Why do we wakeup to strive?

Why do we, in the first place, feel?


They tell us, "this is life"you have to struggle, some are naive and some are vain you have to even, suffer!When ur in pain, unbearable pain. All they can tell us is; "this is life"


What is life?

Why are we still ?

Breathing it huh...bleeding it....wanting it "dead" is alot much simpler and easier a grave is everyones last bed down there, it's happier.

This is not a suicide note.. ingat tu...

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Sunday, March 8

MY....

I wrote "my" then stopped. "my" what exactly? i just realized, nothing in life is really mine/ours.

NOTHING! it sucks.


Sorry it wasnt in my intentions, for my first 2009 post, to be this depressing.But it just happened. because its just is.

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Saturday, March 7

HMMMMM.......

Im chewing an extra mint gum and thinking of absolutely nothing....but the gum.


I now realise i miss manythings; one of them is my thoughts.


In other words i miss my blog

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Friday, March 6

HOW FAR?

When a friend calls, because he/she needs somone to talk to ..just to talk .. vent .. and repeat what theyve been saying for the past 5 years ..as a real friend your supposed to listen .. and care ..simply be there .. but what if that friend of urs wanted more from you ? What if they wanted advise .. what if they wanted you to pin point exactly what they should do .. regarding a life altering situation ..

As a real friend what should you do?


Should you get your self out of it .. pretend that you have no idea, that you dont know what should be done! ..Although in my case .. and for the past 5 years i know exactly what should be done, and i know exactly that its the ONLY way out .. but i never dared even whisper it .. for many reasons ..one of them is i do not want the responsibility of what may happen later on .. also, i belive people .. mature people should decide such things on their own.


So back to the question .. if a friend asks you what to do .. and insists on it ..that it comes from you .. as a real true friend .. what should your answer be?


Hope all is well...

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Thursday, March 5

KIND OF COMPLICATED..

When one says .. they will not change ..they wont let growing up change who they are from the inside ..i know people who made such a promise to them selves ..they actually believe its very important for them not to change, because they have reached a level of comfort with who they've become .. changing to them would mean losing their real identity.
someone told me.; people who promise not to change are in denial .. cause change will happen whether they like it or not .. they will have to break. they shouldn't make such a promise because its not for them to keep. they must .. HAVE to change one day .. and when that day comes .. theyll still be in denial and just wont admit it. they will convince them selves that the new found them was there all the time, when its not the case.


I personally believe when some one doesn't want to change, they can try their best to be who they are .. do say what is normally said and done no matter who they're with and no matter what life brings to their plate.


I believe its a subconscious decision, that each of us make. depending on how comfortable you are with ur inner "self". it also about how how content you are on where your at. i think when your always clear about things in your life, when your honest with your self .. you can set a goal (beginning and end), that is when a clear line will appear .. and that line is you, its the core of who you are. at the end our lives revolve around what we want in life, and what we achieve. and that is who we become.


I know this may not make any sense ..in my head its making perfect sense right now .. and im writing it as it is ..bottom line .. ive been through "shitt" and i dont believe i have changed..yes i have developed in so many things, i survived and got back up, i have matured .. i have learned and gained so much.. but that doesnt mean that my core have changed. its light did get brighter, reached some other areas that weren't as visible before .. but im still just me.i still see me on that line .. and im not going any where ..


When people i know .. give up on their original lines and shift .. it seems unfair,because "life" is no excuse for such loss. Hahahha me nagging... tata..

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Wednesday, March 4

NONSENSE

If you know me, you’d know that nothing much impresses me or makes me laugh. (I might laugh at it but not because of it. That’s another story.) But I have to tell you about a few things that impress me and I can’t rave enough about it...

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